If someone could just give me a date. A simple, everything will stop at this point in time, you’ll stop being sad for no reason, the voices in your head will go away, never again will you have an anxiety attack in the middle of the night that is provoked by your own mind, you will no longer question your own existence or what you are doing with it. I think that I’d have something to fight for.
The problem with Depression and Anxiety is that you can’t see the finish line. It’s an ocean of feelings without a visible shoreline on the horizon. You can’t reassure yourself that you are fighting for something. It’s just enormously defeating.
I think even if I was told I wouldn’t be happy till my 40’s, 50’s 60’s or even 70’s, I’d still fight on. The thought of fighting my entire life, just to find out the finish line never existed in the first place, that terrifies me beyond belief.”